My Shadow

One shoe drops, when will the other?
Why the cops? Is it my mother?
Please let me stay
Don’t take me away
I promise you now, that I’ll be okay
Then… the shadow moves me into another day

The past is blurred, through teary eyes
I am unsure, so many “why’s?”
Is it time, to say goodbye?
Protector or foe?
Enemy or No?
Can I trust you? Or shall I go?
Then… the shadow tosses me to and fro

Three knocks on the door
He falls weeping to the floor
His wife is now gone
I fear it won’t be long
Until the drugs join him to her song
Then…. The shadow moves me along

My phone rings and I cringe
Whats wrong now, my lost friends?
Who has cried?
Who has died?
Who has taken their life, or even tried?
Then….. the shadow moves me across the tide

It all seems insane, yet I still fight
My energy is drained, ahead I see no light
Flailing and drowning, my chest is very tight
The river bank seems so much steeper
I’m sinking ever deeper
Am I to be your only keeper?

I cannot Fight, I cannot Flight, I cannot Freeze
All I can do is Nothing
“Shadow! Take me, please”


Something In the Night Awakes Me


Something in the night awakes me.

Blinking my eyes slowly, I struggle to see through the darkness that surrounds my bed.
My breathing is shallow and quick and I can feel my heart as it begins to pound heavy.
Soon I am gripped by fear, completely unable to move, as I realize that my sister and I are no longer alone in the dark.

There is an evil shadow in our room with us.

I can feel him watch me in the dark.
Every muscle in my body is tense.
I want to stand up and bolt from the room yet I can only manage to move my eyes in a failed attempt to scan my black surroundings.
Then I feel the evil crossing the room towards me. I tightly shut my eyes, it hovers over me. I can feel the dark presence around me. Surrounding me.
It begins pressing against my body causing me to sink farther into my bed. I feel heavy with the weight. The air is getting thicker and the force of the shadow pressing down on my chest makes it increasingly difficult for me to find my breath.

My mind is racing now.

Why is he here again?
What does he want with me?

Soon I can barely breathe and I take a couple desperate gulps for air. I can feel my heart pounding thru my chest. I am frozen in fear now, unable to move or call for help, unable to catch my breath.

The shadow grows all around me.

He presses harder on my chest then reaches down deep inside me towards my soul.
Crushing my throat, choking me until…………….

I cannot breath at all

The Nothingness

 Dark Poetry from another life

The Nothingness……………………………

I can actually feel my heart sink lower, shudder and retreat
It crawls desperately deeper, searching for a blackness
so far, that no one else can reach

I see it cowering
I feel it shrinking
It seems so small now
So deep, I’m not even sure that it’s still there

I am not angry.
It must protect itself.
I must protect me.

I know that it is not healthy that I don’t shed a tear
but to cry now would require my heart and it has abandoned me

I am emotionless.
I stare.
I write.
I breathe.
These things do not hurt.

My shoulders are too heavy to stand
yet when I lay, my chest feels as though it will collapse.
A hideous darkness has pinned me down.
I have trouble breathing.

I am numb.
I am shock.
I am empty.
I am gone.

Nothing to write.
Nothing to feel.
Nothing to say.
Nothing to hurt me.

Here in this darkness, I simply exist…………..

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